I need some help! any advice?

that is so sad, but that is life sometimes, sounds like you still care, but you really wish you didn't. its so unfortunate for the kids too. This woman sounds like a real sleeze bag, but the nice guy you are you even rezent me saying that about her, cause you don't really want to believe it. Let me just say you are not alone there are thousands if not millions in this country who are suffering as you are. Lord knows i have. I had to find the strength to let go, not easy, but you have too. If you don't yes you will do something stupid and she is not worth it, You've heard the old saying sucess is the best revenge, well it rings some truth. You have to let her go, and start over, cry your tears, pray your prayers for strength, and for your son's and yourself forget this woman, she is no good. I understand if she doesn't love you anymore or whatever the case may be, but she is a real mean person to bring it in your face lkie that, But try counseling it works for some people, others it doesn't for whatever reasons. But you must start the ball rolling to get over her, and that will be your best revenge.